New Years.

i really dislike new years. it scares the crap out of me. i always feel like the world is going to end. like as we count down to midnight, we're really counting down to our impending doom. i KNOW nothing is going to happen, and that it is already tomorrow in other places, but i STILL get all nervous. What makes it worse is my family always stays home for new years and it just gives me time to think about different ways the world might end. I wish i could go to a party or like someone else's house for new years so that way at least i could be distracted. *sigh*

well here's to another year of butterflies!

haha
xoxoxo

scrunchies.

I really want a scrunchie. Like a really legit scrunchie. like those american apparel style ones! like omg you have no idea. i've been having the urge to style my hair in ways that could only be achieve with the use of a scrunchie. those little elastic hair ties just don't cut it for me. I WANT A SCRUNCHIE. i wish someone would have gotten them for me for christmas, but no. lol but it's never too late! *hint hint* haha jk.But yeah... i just really love scrunchies.

xoxox <3

gah

i can't find a job :(
like NOWHERE i've heard back from.
ugh ugh ugh

in order to go to bangkok/phuket/sydney next november i need to have at least $4000. My mother says she can get together $1,000 but the other $3000 is up to me. I've planned it all out finacially, but it requires me to get a job before january. Or else i'm not going to be able to save enough. its not a question of "if i can" i simply MUST. I'm already giving up costa rica to save up.

I NEED A JOB.

really really bad.