feeling like this.
i'm scared, ohh so scared.
i need major help.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
i want someone provocative and talkative
but it's so hard, when your shallow as a shower.
cereally. so anywhoo. i was tagged in this on facebook, but i dont wanna post it on facebook. but i do wanna answer the questions so immma put it here. (:
MY TYPE (of guy):
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
thats the first thing i look for. one of the most important qualities.
2. Smart?
doesn't matter, as long as they're not uber stupid. youknowhwatimsaying?
3. Preferred age?
definately older than me. they're more experienced and mature.
4. Preferred height?
at least a head taller than me.
5. How about sense of humor?
that's a must. i love to laugh.
6. How about ears ?
must be clean! and not hairy.
7. Accepts you for who you are?
oif course. they must must. i'm not changing for anyone.
8. Pink hair?
no. not on a man. maybe just a stand, but not the whole thing.
9. Mushy or no?
they need a good balance of mushyness. not too much
10. Thin or fat?
athletic. a muscular athletic.
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
it depends how they look as a whole. but probably not black, unless they have light colored eyes. i like tanned or olive skin.
12. Long hair or short hair?
also depends. some guys work the long hairr. but i prefer short on a guy.
13. Plastic or metal?
not reeally sure what this means but, metal?
14. Smells good?
yes, please smell good.
15. Smoker?
doesnt matter.
16. Drinker?
also doesnt matter. either way.
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
no.
18. Muscular
yes, yes, yes, yes, please! i love muscles. i like to feel protected.
19. Plays piano?
that's be nice (: he could play for me
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
ehh, i dont care.
21. Plays violin?
that would be simpy wonderful.
22. Sings very good?
doesnt matter to me.
23. Vain?
confident.
24. With glasses?
no.
26. Shy type?
no, i dont like shy guys
27. Rebel or good boy/girl
a good balance of both,
but i'd love a bad boy!
28. Active or passive?
active. he has to be able to take my shit & give it right back.
29. Tight or bomb?
tight?
30. Singer or dancer?
dancer. have you seen their bodies? yummy
31. Stunner?
haha yeah!
32. Hiphop?
maybe..
33. Earrings?
doens't matter
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-
you-drop?
no, once your with me. your with me. i dont care about your ex's
35. Dimples?
that's cute<3 but it dont matter
36. Bookworm?
nice, but not nessecary
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
ehhh, idc
38. Playful?
yes!
39. Flirt?
yes, i like them flirts
40. Poem writer?
no
41. Serious?
he has to know when it's appropriate to be serious and when it's not.
42. Campus crush?
no
43. Painter?
that'd be kool, but not required
44. Religious?
doesnt matter.
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
nope, i'm the teaser bby, not the teased.
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
neither.
47. Speaks 20 languages?
that's a little unrealistic, but it would be hella kool
48. Loyal or faithful?
you must be both.
49. good kisser?
yes. they must be
50. loves children??
doesnt matter
cereally. so anywhoo. i was tagged in this on facebook, but i dont wanna post it on facebook. but i do wanna answer the questions so immma put it here. (:
MY TYPE (of guy):
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
thats the first thing i look for. one of the most important qualities.
2. Smart?
doesn't matter, as long as they're not uber stupid. youknowhwatimsaying?
3. Preferred age?
definately older than me. they're more experienced and mature.
4. Preferred height?
at least a head taller than me.
5. How about sense of humor?
that's a must. i love to laugh.
6. How about ears ?
must be clean! and not hairy.
7. Accepts you for who you are?
oif course. they must must. i'm not changing for anyone.
8. Pink hair?
no. not on a man. maybe just a stand, but not the whole thing.
9. Mushy or no?
they need a good balance of mushyness. not too much
10. Thin or fat?
athletic. a muscular athletic.
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
it depends how they look as a whole. but probably not black, unless they have light colored eyes. i like tanned or olive skin.
12. Long hair or short hair?
also depends. some guys work the long hairr. but i prefer short on a guy.
13. Plastic or metal?
not reeally sure what this means but, metal?
14. Smells good?
yes, please smell good.
15. Smoker?
doesnt matter.
16. Drinker?
also doesnt matter. either way.
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
no.
18. Muscular
yes, yes, yes, yes, please! i love muscles. i like to feel protected.
19. Plays piano?
that's be nice (: he could play for me
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
ehh, i dont care.
21. Plays violin?
that would be simpy wonderful.
22. Sings very good?
doesnt matter to me.
23. Vain?
confident.
24. With glasses?
no.
26. Shy type?
no, i dont like shy guys
27. Rebel or good boy/girl
a good balance of both,
but i'd love a bad boy!
28. Active or passive?
active. he has to be able to take my shit & give it right back.
29. Tight or bomb?
tight?
30. Singer or dancer?
dancer. have you seen their bodies? yummy
31. Stunner?
haha yeah!
32. Hiphop?
maybe..
33. Earrings?
doens't matter
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-
you-drop?
no, once your with me. your with me. i dont care about your ex's
35. Dimples?
that's cute<3 but it dont matter
36. Bookworm?
nice, but not nessecary
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
ehhh, idc
38. Playful?
yes!
39. Flirt?
yes, i like them flirts
40. Poem writer?
no
41. Serious?
he has to know when it's appropriate to be serious and when it's not.
42. Campus crush?
no
43. Painter?
that'd be kool, but not required
44. Religious?
doesnt matter.
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
nope, i'm the teaser bby, not the teased.
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
neither.
47. Speaks 20 languages?
that's a little unrealistic, but it would be hella kool
48. Loyal or faithful?
you must be both.
49. good kisser?
yes. they must be
50. loves children??
doesnt matter
Sunday, August 9, 2009
the best things in life are free...
but you can give them to the birds & bees, I WANT MONEY!
Yes, yes i do. because thats the biggest problem in my life right now. it all comes down to money money money, & how we ain't got none, honey! cereally so many family problems lately, it's so overwhelming.eveything that can go wrong or can be thrown at us has been. i wish i could get a job, but i cant. i hate not being able to do anything because i have no money. it's justt getting worse & worse. My family always gets the short end of the stick. we're not even bad people. it's really not fair sometimes. my mother and grandfather and grandmother always give up there time and stuff to other people, they're always kind, & they truly care.Me, my brother, and sister all have learned these ideals and follow them to the best of our ability. becuase it's the right thing to do. But if it's the right way to act then why dont we ever get a break? no one ever helps us, we're on our own.
yeah, i just wanted to get that off my chest. i love my family, & we'll all alive, so i'll just thank the lord for that. i understand that good things just don't happen to some people, & i've accepted my family is one of those families who are just destined to struggle through life. But like i said, as long as we're alive & together, it's worth it. but i cant help hopeing it'll get easier.
love you all.
Yes, yes i do. because thats the biggest problem in my life right now. it all comes down to money money money, & how we ain't got none, honey! cereally so many family problems lately, it's so overwhelming.eveything that can go wrong or can be thrown at us has been. i wish i could get a job, but i cant. i hate not being able to do anything because i have no money. it's justt getting worse & worse. My family always gets the short end of the stick. we're not even bad people. it's really not fair sometimes. my mother and grandfather and grandmother always give up there time and stuff to other people, they're always kind, & they truly care.Me, my brother, and sister all have learned these ideals and follow them to the best of our ability. becuase it's the right thing to do. But if it's the right way to act then why dont we ever get a break? no one ever helps us, we're on our own.
yeah, i just wanted to get that off my chest. i love my family, & we'll all alive, so i'll just thank the lord for that. i understand that good things just don't happen to some people, & i've accepted my family is one of those families who are just destined to struggle through life. But like i said, as long as we're alive & together, it's worth it. but i cant help hopeing it'll get easier.
love you all.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
yeah, i've always been a bad photographer.
DAISY AND REBECCA! <3 8th grade. i fuckin love us.
this photo seemed cute at the time. but it's kinda tooo ehh.
lol. she got me the ducky & the bracelet. she's the poodle to my duck!
Monday, August 3, 2009
what i dont understand...
is that people can go out all the time, but when it comes to hanging out with me all of a sudden you "saving you money". like wtf? just say you dont wana hang out.
i need to find myself some new people.
gahhhhhh
i need to find myself some new people.
gahhhhhh
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
swimming, memories, contentness, friends, etc.
Had a refreshing day today. I'm so glad i decided to go. eventhough i was alone the whole day. i gave myself an hour and a half workout. which in itself was fantastic. i forgot how much i love cold water. After that i got my book out and just layed on the pool deck reading/napping/tanning. it was fabulous. no one talked to me the entire time, no one payed me any notice. i was alone. & i was ok.
This time alone was a very good time for some self-reflection. usually i hate being alone but today was so different. it was undescribable . but i came out from the pool so realxed & at peace with the world. i feel changed & exactly the same at the same time. I dont even know. words fail me.
Through this I realized that all my most memorable moments with my friends or in life in general have been when we weren't really doing anything. it wasnt the times i went to parties, or went out, or got wasted, it wasnt the times when i had the most fun or was the happiest. it was the moments When i was just having a quiet moment or a small conversation with someone, just time where things seemed quiet & simple and i was completely content.
Then i realized that the people i've had these moments with are the ones i'm the closest to. which of course make the moments more special. like with my Friend dulce one of my favorite memories is when we were eating grilled cheese sandwhiches & watching spongebob. with melissa the best was( and still is) everytime i'd go to her house and we just relaxed watching tv. my best moment with Daisy was when we used to lay on the turf at irving and watch the clouds go by. my new fave with kim is when is going to the park/her house with her & just talking about anything & everything. My favorite times with darcy was counting pennies & nickels to have enough to buy 35 cent sodas from el ranchito & her hugs. with sean my favorite times are the times when we just got to cuddle after practice and our long all over the place convos. see? simple,stupid, irrelevant moments that only i remember or treasure. I LOVE MY FRIENDS. they're simply amazing.
but yeah, moment like those make life worth it. along with all the ourtageously fun & happy moments. i need to be alone more often ( but not too often!) it lets me appreaciate things more.
This time alone was a very good time for some self-reflection. usually i hate being alone but today was so different. it was undescribable . but i came out from the pool so realxed & at peace with the world. i feel changed & exactly the same at the same time. I dont even know. words fail me.
Through this I realized that all my most memorable moments with my friends or in life in general have been when we weren't really doing anything. it wasnt the times i went to parties, or went out, or got wasted, it wasnt the times when i had the most fun or was the happiest. it was the moments When i was just having a quiet moment or a small conversation with someone, just time where things seemed quiet & simple and i was completely content.
Then i realized that the people i've had these moments with are the ones i'm the closest to. which of course make the moments more special. like with my Friend dulce one of my favorite memories is when we were eating grilled cheese sandwhiches & watching spongebob. with melissa the best was( and still is) everytime i'd go to her house and we just relaxed watching tv. my best moment with Daisy was when we used to lay on the turf at irving and watch the clouds go by. my new fave with kim is when is going to the park/her house with her & just talking about anything & everything. My favorite times with darcy was counting pennies & nickels to have enough to buy 35 cent sodas from el ranchito & her hugs. with sean my favorite times are the times when we just got to cuddle after practice and our long all over the place convos. see? simple,stupid, irrelevant moments that only i remember or treasure. I LOVE MY FRIENDS. they're simply amazing.
but yeah, moment like those make life worth it. along with all the ourtageously fun & happy moments. i need to be alone more often ( but not too often!) it lets me appreaciate things more.
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