Happy Thanksgiving! <3

I wish everyone the happiest of thanksgivings. I hope everyone has a great day and eats lots of good food. <3

The following is a list of people i'm thankful for. These people truly make me happy to be alive, and i am totally blessed with everything. If i were to count my blessings, i'd be the first person to count to infinity. Its true. No joke. They make me feel infinite. anyways... here's the list :)

I'm thankful for:

My wonderful, messed up, crazy ass, family. For being the stability and instabilty in life. For us always sticking together through all our troubles, for making me the person i am today. and for forgiving me for all my faults, and understanding my difficulties. I am so thankful for you all. Victoria and Alex, you two are the best siblings in the world. I'm sorry i'm not a better sister to you, and i'm thankful you don't mind my phsyco-ness in the slightest. I'm so blessed to have you guys in my past, present, and future. My mother, your the best mother in the world. I just can't even describe with words how much i love you. You know. My grandparents, i'm thankful i grew up with you two. It's shaped me to be the good person i am more than anything else. The reason i try to be good and do good is all for you. Thank you family for being exactly what i need in life. I love you all <3

My rainbow of Friends ( in no particular order):

*Carmine Aiello, I'm so thankful that i went to thailand, because it solidifyed my friendship with you. We were just friends before we went and now coming back your defineately one of my closest girlfriends. I am so thankful and blessed to have you as a friend. Your someone i can tell anything, absolutely anything, and you won't judge me at all and your opinion of me won't change. Thats a beautiful thing. Your friensship came so quickly and unexpectadly at the time i needed it the most, & i'll always appreciate that.I'm so grateful for you, and i know that we're going to be friends for a long time.You truly are like a sister to me. I love you, you whore. <3 lol
*Chad Jariya, i honestly can't even begin to express what you mean to me. Thailand was so worth it, just for the fact that i met you. I'm so thankful to have you in my life now. Your like an older brother, i can tell you any of my problems and you'll never feel burdened by them. Thank you for not treating me and carmine like children, and talking to us like equals.You make me feel loved and i value your words and opinions more than most people.I'll always make the choice to stay up until like 3 in the morning even if i have to get up at 6, if your online, just to talk to you. I love you, my thai hooker <3 !
*Eric Carjan, your honestly the cutest, purest, and easiest friendship i have. I love you so much, its insane. Your like a younger brother to me and i am thankful to have your untainted youth in my life. Your laugh is one of my favorite things in the world, and i can't wait to be your friend/sister as you grow up.If i'm ever hard on you, or too motherly, or overbearing, only know its because i love you. I need you in my life, as much as you need me. You should know your stuck with me forever, so get used to it! LOL, but seriously, your just awesome. I love you baby boy! <3

[ for the above people, i truly can't wait till we're reunited next year. You three are truly like a second family, along w/ Kanjana and Mrs. Carjan, who i am also immensely thankful for. Love you people! )

*Sean Mack , where to begin, where to begin. I hope you know how much i care for you boy. Your one of the few people who actually sort of listen to me when i talk, despite how annoying and squeaky i get. You always call out my bullshit, and i can trust you to be honest with me. You give the best hugs and can always make me smile when i really don't feel like it. Your presence gives me strength because your one of the strongest people i know, besides victoria. Thanks for being there for me. I'm so thankful to have you in my life, eventhough our time together is limited. I love you Link ! <3
*Melissa Duenas, to this day, i can honestly say that i've never met anyone who's inner beauty or outer beauty even comes close to comparing to you. You just give of the most wonderful vibe in the world, and whenever i hangout with you i truly feel happy.You make me laugh and i'm glad i have so many of our funny moments to remember. Your just someone who brings out the best in me, and for that i am so thankful. Your going to be famous one day, i know you are. You've always been a star to me, and its time the world sees it to. Just know that i'm always here for you, ALWAYS.Dont forget that, superstar. Love you melisha, you'll always be the penguin to my duck.<3
*Daisy Garcia, you girl are just fantastic. I love that i can just be a total bitch to you and with you. You always know how to make me laugh and are like someone i can really easily talk to. I love how your blunt, and honest and a little bit mean. It just refreshing to have someone so real in my life. Eventhough your a skankbasket, at least you know it and embrace it! More people should be like you. You also are the hottest mofo i know. Geez girl, seriously. LOL, anyways thanks for just being daisy. Because thats what i need. Love you poodle! <3
*Kimberly Figuracion, I'm so happy to know you. its as simple as that. Your gorgeous, athletic, funny, and smart. Your just fabulous.I love that i can talk to you, and not feel awkward. It amazing we've stayed friends, eventhough we're so closebutsofar! It just helps me keep the hope alive that i will be blessed enough to have you in my life for a long time.With you my self-esteem is at an all time low.For you kimmie, i'll always have all time love. <3
*Dulce Ochoa, your seriously the fiercest lady in the world. I admire your attitude, your divaness, and your faith. I love how your just as loud and crazy as i am. But your also such a sweet and loyal friend. I'm glad even though, your all the way in texas, we've stayed close. You'll always be in my thought and one of my closest friends. I love you, you crazy ass texan! <3
*Daisy Chan & Bryan Luong, for making school bearable, and helping me handle the little dramas of everyday life. For being just as nerdy and dorky as i am, from playing pokemon pictionary to casting spells from harry potter. We truly are nerds, but the 3 of us together make it not so lame. I'd search for narnia with you guys anytime, anyday, I love you two <3.
* Darcy Cotto, you make me smile so much it makes my face heart. We're equally retarded and that makes me smile. Everytime i see a gummy i think of you. I really love the way you dress, the way you look, and just everything about you. David is a really lucky boy<3. I'm thanfkul when i decide not to go to the dance in 7th grade because if i had gone, i probably wouldnt have you in my life today.haha, I love you, my honey bunches of oats<3
*Michelle Menechyan, you sexy, sexy,sexy, girl. I freakin love you. Seriously, girl. I love the fact that i can lift you up and spin you around and i love that you love when i do it. I love how you take my advice, and value my opinion. I love all our innuendo and sexual remarks. It makes me giggle. Your.Just.So.Spectacular. i dont even know words to tell you that i love you. I'm so thankful to have your gorgus spirit in my life. I love you, sexythang! <3

I'm also thankful for : Benjamin Luong, Joseph Lee, Annie Gov, Connie Ruan, and the rest of my school friends. And the swim team.

I'm thankful for everything really. I'm so so so so blessed. <3 i'm thankful for everyone and everything in my life. There's honestly too many to say. But i love you all, and hope you had a great thankgsgiving <3

the best things in life are free...

but you can give them to the birds & bees, I WANT MONEY!



Yes, yes i do. because thats the biggest problem in my life right now. it all comes down to money money money, & how we ain't got none, honey! cereally so many family problems lately, it's so overwhelming.eveything that can go wrong or can be thrown at us has been. i wish i could get a job, but i cant. i hate not being able to do anything because i have no money. it's justt getting worse & worse. My family always gets the short end of the stick. we're not even bad people. it's really not fair sometimes. my mother and grandfather and grandmother always give up there time and stuff to other people, they're always kind, & they truly care.Me, my brother, and sister all have learned these ideals and follow them to the best of our ability. becuase it's the right thing to do. But if it's the right way to act then why dont we ever get a break? no one ever helps us, we're on our own.

yeah, i just wanted to get that off my chest. i love my family, & we'll all alive, so i'll just thank the lord for that. i understand that good things just don't happen to some people, & i've accepted my family is one of those families who are just destined to struggle through life. But like i said, as long as we're alive & together, it's worth it. but i cant help hopeing it'll get easier.


love you all.

el banquet.

thee banquet was lots of fun. Got lots of awards,ate panda express, took some crappy photos, & hungout w/ like the koolest people ever. a.k.a. the swim team. the slideshow was kinda lame, only becuase their werent enough pictures of me & sean. or me & other people. which i guess is conceited but, whatev! i feel like i deserved more than those little bit of pictures i ended up getting. but i digress. i just like the banquet overall becuase i miss swim alot alot, and hanging w/ the team was pretty faboosh. ohh and ain't this picture of sean creepy? i think so. your gonna give me nightmares ma'am! haha, but Eliza is cute, as always.



anywhoo, i ended up leaving with alot more than i came with, lol. i left with a zillion pictures, like 20 bottles of bubbles, 10 fake seashells, a sandal keychain, 2 glowsticks, three framed pictures, a redwhiteblue lei, and cake residue in my hair, that i can't seem to get out. ohh, & i need to say that i'm really going to miss the seniors! it's going to be wierd w/out them next year. like i've grown accustomed to see their faces after two years. aww i love them, & i hope they have a great life<3

well i thinks thats all. because i can't think clearly. ( i never can) sigh.

ohh and next year, i vote to give me my own slideshow. guest starring others, as long as i'm in everyother picture i'll be cool. becuase cereally. like wtf? me & sean should have been the stars of that shiz. i mean have you seen us? yeah, exactly.

ermm.... thats it i guess.
i love you all <3

st-st-stress

so yeah, right now i'm blogging. when there is a bazillion other things i should be doing. i just don't know what to do first.I have less than a month to do everything. OHH why did i sign up to take 4 ap classes. i think i'm crazy. but yeah to give you an idea of what i have to do:

1. read the friggin scarlet letter! asdfghjkl!
2. take a notebook full of detailed notes/vocab on the above book ^
3. take the calculus test & review my weak spots from trig (hello LOGS!)
4. try and start to memorize the presidents and their terms.
5. figure out where i'm going to swim!(*my most important thing*)


yeah, might not seem like alot but it is. trust me it is.


i need to start swimming again, because i'm suffering from withdrawl.

saturday.(yes, i'm aware it's monday)

So sorry i didn't blog yesterday, i was going to but i ended up getting too....distracted. So on saturday the day started out normal, but when we went to go take my sis to her friend's house my borther's girlfriend called me up crying. long story short my brother almost got arrested, but didn't. thank goodness. the only reason he didnt get arrested is because the cop had no reason for pulling him over.All i can do is thank the lord that he wasn't arrested. it would have killed me, & my grandfather, & rest of my family. So yeah thnak-goodness.

As a result of my brother almost getting arrested, i cried a hell of a lot. which triggered an asthma attack. i really was very close to getting 911 called.i scared a lot of people. sorry everyone!

well yeah, that was a very horrible experience.

lasterday.

***sorry this is like uber late. Today was like uberly stressful & hectic & terifying. But you'll hear about that tomorrow. if i thought about today right now, i'd probably have another asthma attack. ***





So yesterday, i went to go see Drag Me To Hell. ( yeah, 100% not my idea). And i'm like a really big scaredy cat when it comes to horror movies. But all my worries about being scared and having nightmares were wasted. Because the movie was pretty horrible. The effects were cheap & some of the scenarios were HIGHlarious. The actors were very good though.Alison Lohman was really great, and convincing and really cute<3.She made the movie suck less.Justin Long was great as always.So yeah, the concept is much more scary than the movie itself. I mean good people who go to hell? not a pleasant thought.

Anywhoo. the only reason i think i was able to get through the movie without being scared is that everyone around me was making jokes and laughing. it made the movie really funny. ( & the movie itself might have contributed to my laughter). Another reason i wasn't scared is because i had my bestie with me, & he made sure i was comforted & not scared. Cereally he is like the greatest frickin friend you could ever have. I LURVE YAH SEAN!

So yeah, over all the day was fun. Chris, Chris,& Miguel were funny. Chubby Bunny was so weak!(S'Mack went home with a bad of marshmallows!) Movie was suckish, but at least i got to lay down.Apple store was exhausting. ( you have no idea!) hahaha. yeah this is too long already so i'll leave it at that.

Love you all! <3