ma vie est une montagne de rouge.

life is a rollercoaster, that much is true.

but i'm scared of rollercoasters.

terrified actually.

anticipation, a build up and then a fall.
scream, cry, hold you're breath until you turn blue.
panic attacks that lead to astham attacks.

thats how a rollercoaster feels like to me.

i'm yelling at the attendant, telling him to lift the bar, i can't handle this, i'm not brave enough, i want off, please get me off.

but no one listens.the ride starts and i sit there a helpless wreck.



couldn't we have just ridden the carousel instead?