Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving! <3

I wish everyone the happiest of thanksgivings. I hope everyone has a great day and eats lots of good food. <3

The following is a list of people i'm thankful for. These people truly make me happy to be alive, and i am totally blessed with everything. If i were to count my blessings, i'd be the first person to count to infinity. Its true. No joke. They make me feel infinite. anyways... here's the list :)

I'm thankful for:

My wonderful, messed up, crazy ass, family. For being the stability and instabilty in life. For us always sticking together through all our troubles, for making me the person i am today. and for forgiving me for all my faults, and understanding my difficulties. I am so thankful for you all. Victoria and Alex, you two are the best siblings in the world. I'm sorry i'm not a better sister to you, and i'm thankful you don't mind my phsyco-ness in the slightest. I'm so blessed to have you guys in my past, present, and future. My mother, your the best mother in the world. I just can't even describe with words how much i love you. You know. My grandparents, i'm thankful i grew up with you two. It's shaped me to be the good person i am more than anything else. The reason i try to be good and do good is all for you. Thank you family for being exactly what i need in life. I love you all <3

My rainbow of Friends ( in no particular order):

*Carmine Aiello, I'm so thankful that i went to thailand, because it solidifyed my friendship with you. We were just friends before we went and now coming back your defineately one of my closest girlfriends. I am so thankful and blessed to have you as a friend. Your someone i can tell anything, absolutely anything, and you won't judge me at all and your opinion of me won't change. Thats a beautiful thing. Your friensship came so quickly and unexpectadly at the time i needed it the most, & i'll always appreciate that.I'm so grateful for you, and i know that we're going to be friends for a long time.You truly are like a sister to me. I love you, you whore. <3 lol
*Chad Jariya, i honestly can't even begin to express what you mean to me. Thailand was so worth it, just for the fact that i met you. I'm so thankful to have you in my life now. Your like an older brother, i can tell you any of my problems and you'll never feel burdened by them. Thank you for not treating me and carmine like children, and talking to us like equals.You make me feel loved and i value your words and opinions more than most people.I'll always make the choice to stay up until like 3 in the morning even if i have to get up at 6, if your online, just to talk to you. I love you, my thai hooker <3 !
*Eric Carjan, your honestly the cutest, purest, and easiest friendship i have. I love you so much, its insane. Your like a younger brother to me and i am thankful to have your untainted youth in my life. Your laugh is one of my favorite things in the world, and i can't wait to be your friend/sister as you grow up.If i'm ever hard on you, or too motherly, or overbearing, only know its because i love you. I need you in my life, as much as you need me. You should know your stuck with me forever, so get used to it! LOL, but seriously, your just awesome. I love you baby boy! <3

[ for the above people, i truly can't wait till we're reunited next year. You three are truly like a second family, along w/ Kanjana and Mrs. Carjan, who i am also immensely thankful for. Love you people! )

*Sean Mack , where to begin, where to begin. I hope you know how much i care for you boy. Your one of the few people who actually sort of listen to me when i talk, despite how annoying and squeaky i get. You always call out my bullshit, and i can trust you to be honest with me. You give the best hugs and can always make me smile when i really don't feel like it. Your presence gives me strength because your one of the strongest people i know, besides victoria. Thanks for being there for me. I'm so thankful to have you in my life, eventhough our time together is limited. I love you Link ! <3
*Melissa Duenas, to this day, i can honestly say that i've never met anyone who's inner beauty or outer beauty even comes close to comparing to you. You just give of the most wonderful vibe in the world, and whenever i hangout with you i truly feel happy.You make me laugh and i'm glad i have so many of our funny moments to remember. Your just someone who brings out the best in me, and for that i am so thankful. Your going to be famous one day, i know you are. You've always been a star to me, and its time the world sees it to. Just know that i'm always here for you, ALWAYS.Dont forget that, superstar. Love you melisha, you'll always be the penguin to my duck.<3
*Daisy Garcia, you girl are just fantastic. I love that i can just be a total bitch to you and with you. You always know how to make me laugh and are like someone i can really easily talk to. I love how your blunt, and honest and a little bit mean. It just refreshing to have someone so real in my life. Eventhough your a skankbasket, at least you know it and embrace it! More people should be like you. You also are the hottest mofo i know. Geez girl, seriously. LOL, anyways thanks for just being daisy. Because thats what i need. Love you poodle! <3
*Kimberly Figuracion, I'm so happy to know you. its as simple as that. Your gorgeous, athletic, funny, and smart. Your just fabulous.I love that i can talk to you, and not feel awkward. It amazing we've stayed friends, eventhough we're so closebutsofar! It just helps me keep the hope alive that i will be blessed enough to have you in my life for a long time.With you my self-esteem is at an all time low.For you kimmie, i'll always have all time love. <3
*Dulce Ochoa, your seriously the fiercest lady in the world. I admire your attitude, your divaness, and your faith. I love how your just as loud and crazy as i am. But your also such a sweet and loyal friend. I'm glad even though, your all the way in texas, we've stayed close. You'll always be in my thought and one of my closest friends. I love you, you crazy ass texan! <3
*Daisy Chan & Bryan Luong, for making school bearable, and helping me handle the little dramas of everyday life. For being just as nerdy and dorky as i am, from playing pokemon pictionary to casting spells from harry potter. We truly are nerds, but the 3 of us together make it not so lame. I'd search for narnia with you guys anytime, anyday, I love you two <3.
* Darcy Cotto, you make me smile so much it makes my face heart. We're equally retarded and that makes me smile. Everytime i see a gummy i think of you. I really love the way you dress, the way you look, and just everything about you. David is a really lucky boy<3. I'm thanfkul when i decide not to go to the dance in 7th grade because if i had gone, i probably wouldnt have you in my life today.haha, I love you, my honey bunches of oats<3
*Michelle Menechyan, you sexy, sexy,sexy, girl. I freakin love you. Seriously, girl. I love the fact that i can lift you up and spin you around and i love that you love when i do it. I love how you take my advice, and value my opinion. I love all our innuendo and sexual remarks. It makes me giggle. Your.Just.So.Spectacular. i dont even know words to tell you that i love you. I'm so thankful to have your gorgus spirit in my life. I love you, sexythang! <3

I'm also thankful for : Benjamin Luong, Joseph Lee, Annie Gov, Connie Ruan, and the rest of my school friends. And the swim team.

I'm thankful for everything really. I'm so so so so blessed. <3 i'm thankful for everyone and everything in my life. There's honestly too many to say. But i love you all, and hope you had a great thankgsgiving <3

Thursday, October 22, 2009

In honor of the end of school...

here's a school survey ;)

Period 1

1. Who sits behind you?
no one, but i sit opposite wondy :)

2. What class is it?
AP Language- Farley

3. Have you ever fallen asleep in first period?
lol. yeah. it's just sooo boring sometimes.

4. Is your best friend in this class?
i don't really have a best friend. so no

5. Do you hate anyone in this class?
only the teacher. haha JK,no hate fo' him, he gave me an A (:

Period 2

1. What class is it?
H. US History - Ortiz

2. Are you failing this class?
pssshhhhhh, i couldnt fail if i tryed. so flipping easy.

3. Is this your favorite class?
umm no. it's ok though

4. Who sits next to you?
bryan/ victor to my right & daisy behind me

5. What do you do in this class?
talk ALOT w/ them 3 listed above.
lost of laughs & sexual innuendos ;)

Period 3

1. What class is it?
AP Chem

2. Do you sit by your friend?
yes! bryan and daisy and benjamin!

3. Who's the teacher?
Gonzales !

4. Are you allowed to eat in this class?
i'm not sure. i just chew gum

5. Do you have friends in this class.
of course

6. Is your best friend in this class?
again does not really apply.

7. Is that class hard?
i can't get an A. it's quite hard.

Period 4

1. What class is it?
AP Calculus!

2. Who teaches it?
Cristiani

3. Are any of your friends in that class?
yessir

4. Do you get in trouble in this class?
lol no. i actually pay attention

5. Does your teacher let you chew gum?
i dont think he really cares

Period 5

1.What class is it?
French

2. What do you do during period 5?
talk about drugs, sex, & pop culture.
occasionally we learn a french word or two

3. Do you chew gum in period 5?
yes, i ALWAYS do

4. Anyone you want to kiss during period 5?
secret, secret. yes there is, but i aint gonna say who it is.

5. Is period 5 your favorite class?
No, not at all
but def, some of the most awkward/interesting convos of the days

6. Who do you talk with the most in this class?
all them kids, we're all friends (:

7. Do you have a crush on someone in this class?
maybe......sorta....hhmmm

8. Who has this class with you that has a Facebook?
alot of people.

Period 6

1. Who sits behind you?
no one

2. What class is it?
Service!

4. What's the teacher like?
she's really cool (:

5. Is your best friend in this class?
again w/ this question? really?

6. Is there anyone you hate in this class?
nope.

7. Do you like this class?
nope, i awlays leave like 5 min after i get there.

Period 7

1. What class is it?
Golf

2. What do you do ?
nothing! i dont have to attend

3. Did you learn anything?
umm, how to get free P.E. credits?

4. How many people are in this class?
ummm idk

5. Good memories?
not many

Sunday, September 20, 2009

upcoming

So much is coming up!
this vacation is going to be fun.
the only problem is... i still gotta get through more than a month of school!
eeeeeeek! stupid school.
school's going ok. i think imma end up with all A's excpet in chem imma probably get a C. ohhh chem, why do you gotta be so hard?

but anyways vacation:
I'm going to THAILAND! <3
sha-yeah! i'm uber excited.

also imma get my license!
but sadly, it turns out i wont be able to get my licsence until november. noooo!
well, at least i'm getting it.

& i might, ( modt likely) going to get a job!
which mean money. me likey money

& imma start swimming hardcore. & maybe even run a little ( this is where everyone is supposed to laugh). LOL

so yeah,
dear school,
BE OVER ALREADY!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

another survey. ( eeeesh)

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
i start with my left arm always.

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
black!

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
no, i definatley would not.

4.Do you plan outfits?
sort of i guess.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
lonely; anxious; hopeful; stressed; disillusioned

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
a sticker on my laptop

7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
aim

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
i was at the mall with everyone i know. no one would ackknowledge me, not even the animals. i was utterly alone.

9. Did you meet anybody new today?
nooooo..? but i got re-aquainted with an old friend.

10. What are you craving right now?
sleep.

11. Do you floss?
i try to! but my teeth are too crooked

12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
ummm, cabbage?

13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
yesterday

14. Are you emotional?
i define emotional.

15. Would you dance to the taco song?
wtf?

16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
nope, only to 100

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
i lick it & suck it. ( thatswhatshesaid)

18. Do you like your hair?
we have a love/hate relationship

19. Do you like yourself?
not really

20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
gwen! hahah sorta

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
ewww, no.

22. What are you listening to right now?
nothing. i'm in silence

23. How many countries have you visited?
sadly only this one :(

24. Are your parents strict?
my grandparent are, but my mother isnt

25. Would you go sky diving?
i think i would. i'd like to try.

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
no, i don't like poliitcians.


27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
No i would not. despite him being a dumbass i believe everyone deserves respect. EVEN HIM.

28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
my pencil! (:

29. Have you ever been in a castle?
i wish. only in my dreams

30. Do you rent movies often?
yes. but i rarely watch them.

31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
the whole asian population! hahah jk.
but that what it seems like!

32. Have you made a prank phone call?
hahaha yes!

33. Do you own a gun?
no, i am soooo against guns

34. Can you count backwards from 74?
i think so?

35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
myself? lol

36. Brown or white eggs?
neither, i hate eggs

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
many, many things!

38. Ever been on a train?
yes, when i was younger

39. Ever been in love?
nope

40. Do you have a cell-phone?
of course

41. Are you too forgiving?
much too forgiving

42. Do you use chap stick?
no, i lick em.

43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
i don't have a best friend.

44. Can you use chop sticks?
sort of.

45. Ever have cream puffs?
yummy<#

46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
nope

47. What was the last question you asked?
why?

48. What was the last CD you bought?
all time low NOTHING PERSONAL!

49. Boys or girls?
both

50. What is your bus number for school?
i am not a bus person

51. Is your hair curly?
~wavy~

52. Last time you cried?
i cant remember. like a week ago? i hold in my tears.

53. Ever walked into a wall?
so many times.

54. Do looks matter?
yes, sadly they do.

55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
mmmhhmm

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
who hasnt?

57. Favorite time of the year?
spring/summer

58. Favorite color?
rainbow!

59. Are you sarcastic?
sometimes.

60. Do you have any tattoos?
no, but imma get my lightning bolt!

61. The last person you held hands with?
mary rose!<3

62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
no, i always turn it off

63. Where was your default picture taken at?
the pool?

64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
yes.

65. Do you like your life right now?
it's ok.

66. How often do you talk on the phone?
hardly ever. i text bby.

67. What is your favorite animal?
sea otters

68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
poster board

69. Do you have good vision?
no it's all blurry

70. Can you hula hoop?
yesssss, i spin that shiz right round!

71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
yes, i'm a strong believer in second chances

72. Do you have a job?
nope

73. Can you handle the truth?
yes, eventhough people don't think i can.

74. What are you wearing?
marshall shorts & an old shirt

75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes!

Monday, August 24, 2009

i hate.

feeling like this.
i'm scared, ohh so scared.

i need major help.

Friday, August 21, 2009

i want someone provocative and talkative

but it's so hard, when your shallow as a shower.

cereally. so anywhoo. i was tagged in this on facebook, but i dont wanna post it on facebook. but i do wanna answer the questions so immma put it here. (:

MY TYPE (of guy):


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
thats the first thing i look for. one of the most important qualities.

2. Smart?
doesn't matter, as long as they're not uber stupid. youknowhwatimsaying?

3. Preferred age?
definately older than me. they're more experienced and mature.

4. Preferred height?
at least a head taller than me.

5. How about sense of humor?
that's a must. i love to laugh.

6. How about ears ?
must be clean! and not hairy.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
oif course. they must must. i'm not changing for anyone.

8. Pink hair?
no. not on a man. maybe just a stand, but not the whole thing.

9. Mushy or no?
they need a good balance of mushyness. not too much

10. Thin or fat?
athletic. a muscular athletic.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
it depends how they look as a whole. but probably not black, unless they have light colored eyes. i like tanned or olive skin.

12. Long hair or short hair?
also depends. some guys work the long hairr. but i prefer short on a guy.

13. Plastic or metal?
not reeally sure what this means but, metal?

14. Smells good?
yes, please smell good.

15. Smoker?
doesnt matter.

16. Drinker?
also doesnt matter. either way.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
no.

18. Muscular
yes, yes, yes, yes, please! i love muscles. i like to feel protected.

19. Plays piano?
that's be nice (: he could play for me

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
ehh, i dont care.

21. Plays violin?
that would be simpy wonderful.

22. Sings very good?
doesnt matter to me.

23. Vain?
confident.

24. With glasses?
no.

26. Shy type?
no, i dont like shy guys

27. Rebel or good boy/girl
a good balance of both,
but i'd love a bad boy!

28. Active or passive?
active. he has to be able to take my shit & give it right back.

29. Tight or bomb?
tight?

30. Singer or dancer?
dancer. have you seen their bodies? yummy

31. Stunner?
haha yeah!

32. Hiphop?
maybe..

33. Earrings?
doens't matter

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-
you-drop?
no, once your with me. your with me. i dont care about your ex's

35. Dimples?
that's cute<3 but it dont matter

36. Bookworm?
nice, but not nessecary

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
ehhh, idc

38. Playful?
yes!

39. Flirt?
yes, i like them flirts

40. Poem writer?
no

41. Serious?
he has to know when it's appropriate to be serious and when it's not.

42. Campus crush?
no

43. Painter?
that'd be kool, but not required

44. Religious?
doesnt matter.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
nope, i'm the teaser bby, not the teased.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
neither.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
that's a little unrealistic, but it would be hella kool

48. Loyal or faithful?
you must be both.

49. good kisser?
yes. they must be

50. loves children??
doesnt matter

Sunday, August 9, 2009

the best things in life are free...

but you can give them to the birds & bees, I WANT MONEY!



Yes, yes i do. because thats the biggest problem in my life right now. it all comes down to money money money, & how we ain't got none, honey! cereally so many family problems lately, it's so overwhelming.eveything that can go wrong or can be thrown at us has been. i wish i could get a job, but i cant. i hate not being able to do anything because i have no money. it's justt getting worse & worse. My family always gets the short end of the stick. we're not even bad people. it's really not fair sometimes. my mother and grandfather and grandmother always give up there time and stuff to other people, they're always kind, & they truly care.Me, my brother, and sister all have learned these ideals and follow them to the best of our ability. becuase it's the right thing to do. But if it's the right way to act then why dont we ever get a break? no one ever helps us, we're on our own.

yeah, i just wanted to get that off my chest. i love my family, & we'll all alive, so i'll just thank the lord for that. i understand that good things just don't happen to some people, & i've accepted my family is one of those families who are just destined to struggle through life. But like i said, as long as we're alive & together, it's worth it. but i cant help hopeing it'll get easier.


love you all.