ma vie en noir.

ma vie...
currently sucks ass. but whatev, it'll get better someday. ( or maybe not)

can't wait for october, it's all i want right now. i want to drive, & be able to do whatever the fuck i want to. because i'm trapped. i want to be able to visit my girls, & go swimming when i want to.

je déteste ma vie!je déteste ma vie!je déteste ma vie!

but i know i have it easy, i'm lucky. & i'm a selfish bitch for taking it for granted, but i don't care, sometimes one just has to be like that.

i want to drop out of school, & travel this world. never talk to anyone i know again. i want to stop caring the way i do, because ultimately it holds me back. when your life goal is to make others happy, & you try your best to give happiness to others, there is no happiness in this world left in the world for yourself. story of my fucking life. i know i'm going to be stuck where i am forever. some of us are not destined to be happy. some of us get the shrt end of the stick. & thats just the way life goes.

i accept my place in life, but that doesnt make it suck any less.i know i won't accomplish half the things i would like to in life because of things/ alife i am obligated to fufill.

sorry for sounding like this but it's just how i've been feeling for as long as i can remember. & i'll probably always feel this way.

i love you all. & i hope your all happyer w/ your lives.