insane.

1: have you ever had the impulse to slam your head violently into a wall?

2: all the time darling, its my second biggest impulse next to punching people in the face.

1: Why don't you?

2: Punch people in the face?

1: yeah.

2: i guess i realize it wouldn't help.

1: Help what?

2: Now thats the question.

narrowing it down.

i've narrowed down the colleges i'm thinking of applying to. i might add more or delete some as time goes on, depending. Most of them are east coast school, with a few exceptions. i've slip them into three categories, as you see.

The "not in a million years, you silly naive girl!" List.
( obviously,this is the list tha is not going to happen, but its worth applying to. Just in case they need a minority. )
1. Haverford College
2. Swarthmore College
3. Cornell University


The " still probably a no, but worth the shot" List
( i have a better chance for these, if i don't fuck up senior year, and do the shit i need to do. but.... still no. )
1. Fordham University
2. Pepperdine University
3. Sarah Lawrence College


The" More realistic, but still kinda ehhh" List
( more likely then not, i'll go to one of these.but you never know, they may all deny me )
1. Union College
2. UC Sand Diego
3. Occidental




or if all else fails. COMMUNITY COLLEGE.

Rock For Equality

Today, i went to a rally.
i took mostly video, but here are a few pictures i have of the rally.

romeo, save me.

Is it corny to say that this medley totally gets me? because it so does.

school vs. education

"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education."- Mark Twain

Now i believe in school, that children should be taught to read and write and things of that nature. These are necessities for children, in order for them to have the skills necessary to thrive in society and keep up w/ the world as it progresses. However, once children are older, lets say around the teens ( particularly those in their final years of high school and college) school has the ability to hinder education rather than aid it. The structure of classrooms, the rules, and the standards can all contribute to the loss of unique and individual thought.

Let me explain this idea a little. Lets take english for example, we learn to read when we're quite young. We learn the alphabet, write our name, form sentences, and eventually to read and write our thoughts down on paper. then we get a little older, we learn to write in a structured format, read books that are assigned to us ( at this age more for the sake of reading). The we get even older, ( lets say high school now) and we're forced to become even more structured with our writing, to follow strict formats and read books that are not only assigned to be read, but to dissect it and analyze it and write essays on it and to beat it to a pulp until a book we normally would have enjoyed makes us cringe.Personally, i can prove this. I used to love to read, i used to read all the time, and i honestly i could not read enough. Then i went to high school were i was required to read certain books. Now don't get me wrong, i'm learning to appreciate all the books i've read so far in high school, they were all required for a reason. But the point is all these assignments and standards made me not want to read as much as before, especially since my time was consumed by doing the assignments and not enjoying the book. They give us the assignments to help us understand and absorb the book, but really it just makes us lose interest in it at all.

I think europe has it right. children should be going to university/college much earlier than the age they do in the US. but sadly i live in the US. i do understand the necessity of school, but it does get in the way of education sometimes. i used to love to learn. but now i don't learn, i go to school. But this is just a build up for the days of late college (after the first two years) and the rest of my life, where you truly start to learn.

50 before 33.

1. Visit Chile
2. Go on a road trip across the US
3. go to disney world & the wizarding world in florida
4. swim with dolphins and/or whales
5. travel to england and search for magic
6. learn to speak spanish
7. go sky diving
8. visit the great barrier reef
9. go to a pub in Scotland or Ireland
10. go zorbing in New Zealand
11. Join the Peace Corps
12. make a full length documentary
13. get a tattoo
14. learn to change my own oil, pump my own gas, and change a tire
15. become fluent in french, portuguese, or german.
16. learn to read and write in latin and/or sanskrit.
17. take a dance class
18. watch a sunset on the beach with someone i love
19. get married
20. participate in NANOWRIMO
21. audition for a reality show
22. see the northern lights
23. take my grandmother to paris and my mother to Jamaica
24. mend my relationship with my sister
25. run 5 miles without stopping
26. swim 1 mile in the ocean w/out stopping
27. learn to surf
28. see a broadway musical
29. learn to play the piano or the violin
30. learn to drive a stick shift
31. get into a fight
32. stop biting mu nails
33. get drunk
34. spend a christmas/ new years in NYC
35. hold a baby tiger
36. go to school on the east coast
37. ride an elephant
38. take the subway to the beach
39. kiss somebody in the rain
40. become a certified lifeguard
41. backpack across europe
42. learn how to cook
43. pitch an idea for a television show
44. see snow
45. jump off a cliff
46. have a picnic by a waterfall
47. find my calling
48. take more pictures and write more
49. try my hand in acting
50. disappear for at least a week