a letter a day

Doing this on Blogger, because not as many people see it as on tumblr. but it's still there if someone looks hard enough. (;

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

insane.

1: have you ever had the impulse to slam your head violently into a wall?

2: all the time darling, its my second biggest impulse next to punching people in the face.

1: Why don't you?

2: Punch people in the face?

1: yeah.

2: i guess i realize it wouldn't help.

1: Help what?

2: Now thats the question.

narrowing it down.

i've narrowed down the colleges i'm thinking of applying to. i might add more or delete some as time goes on, depending. Most of them are east coast school, with a few exceptions. i've slip them into three categories, as you see.

The "not in a million years, you silly naive girl!" List.
( obviously,this is the list tha is not going to happen, but its worth applying to. Just in case they need a minority. )
1. Haverford College
2. Swarthmore College
3. Cornell University


The " still probably a no, but worth the shot" List
( i have a better chance for these, if i don't fuck up senior year, and do the shit i need to do. but.... still no. )
1. Fordham University
2. Pepperdine University
3. Sarah Lawrence College


The" More realistic, but still kinda ehhh" List
( more likely then not, i'll go to one of these.but you never know, they may all deny me )
1. Union College
2. UC Sand Diego
3. Occidental




or if all else fails. COMMUNITY COLLEGE.

Rock For Equality

Today, i went to a rally.
i took mostly video, but here are a few pictures i have of the rally.

romeo, save me.

Is it corny to say that this medley totally gets me? because it so does.

school vs. education

"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education."- Mark Twain

Now i believe in school, that children should be taught to read and write and things of that nature. These are necessities for children, in order for them to have the skills necessary to thrive in society and keep up w/ the world as it progresses. However, once children are older, lets say around the teens ( particularly those in their final years of high school and college) school has the ability to hinder education rather than aid it. The structure of classrooms, the rules, and the standards can all contribute to the loss of unique and individual thought.

Let me explain this idea a little. Lets take english for example, we learn to read when we're quite young. We learn the alphabet, write our name, form sentences, and eventually to read and write our thoughts down on paper. then we get a little older, we learn to write in a structured format, read books that are assigned to us ( at this age more for the sake of reading). The we get even older, ( lets say high school now) and we're forced to become even more structured with our writing, to follow strict formats and read books that are not only assigned to be read, but to dissect it and analyze it and write essays on it and to beat it to a pulp until a book we normally would have enjoyed makes us cringe.Personally, i can prove this. I used to love to read, i used to read all the time, and i honestly i could not read enough. Then i went to high school were i was required to read certain books. Now don't get me wrong, i'm learning to appreciate all the books i've read so far in high school, they were all required for a reason. But the point is all these assignments and standards made me not want to read as much as before, especially since my time was consumed by doing the assignments and not enjoying the book. They give us the assignments to help us understand and absorb the book, but really it just makes us lose interest in it at all.

I think europe has it right. children should be going to university/college much earlier than the age they do in the US. but sadly i live in the US. i do understand the necessity of school, but it does get in the way of education sometimes. i used to love to learn. but now i don't learn, i go to school. But this is just a build up for the days of late college (after the first two years) and the rest of my life, where you truly start to learn.